It’s so little yet so big. Just a simple look of yours that you might give. It tells me everything will be okay. When the suffering becomes too much, you provide an out. You’re sunshine, you’re rain. You still the nerves, you bring on the calm. And I realize it’s not about me. It’s not about my pain. It’s not about my thoughts – all those illusions that build the walls. It’s simply about you. Are you okay. What can I do for you today. Should I go away. Is it okay if I quietly stay. Is it okay if I acknowledge my pain, but then put it away. Did I miss something along the way. Something that maybe you were trying to say. In the quiet of the stars, angels lend their calm. So different than the rush inside your arms. The feeling of home of a head finding rest on your lap. An embrace eternal. When I try to shed desire, all my desire is there. I’ve never been so in love. I’m sure this has never happened before. It sounds dramatic to say I would give my life for you, but I would without hesitation. I’ve already given it to you. But that desire can eat away. It finds my weakness, and when I’m not strong, it will cast me into waves that drown. But I learn. I almost drowned before. And a dear friend recently has. Now there’s training not to panic. Don’t fight the undertow, but still yourself and go with the flow. A matter of trust, a matter of faith. But more often than not you will float up safe. You go with. And where you’ve taken me is on a journey of the sublime. I’ve never known beauty like yours. To heck with the pain. I don’t feel it now. Any suffering is all worthwhile. I got to see you in this life. How many can say that? I could have lived at any other time, but I got to see your unforgettable face in this one. This life. Of yours. And you set off alarms and sprinklers. Of hearts and tears. You inhabit, and yet you calm. You cut through all my fears. Even if I never get to you, the promised land, you’re in my heart, you’ve shifted the sand. I love you. Is that enough? – is the question. Enough for what? – comes the answer. It’s all about you. It shifts and changes but never loses its true focus. You’ve changed me, your love is inside me, and there I find my locus. In a world of coming and going, of now-you-see-me, now-you-don’t, I can close my eyes and keep the thought of you. Your beauty. In and out. That part of you will stay. In my mind forever. It will hold on, always, even when the body goes away. I love you forever. You are the magic in the moonbeam. You are the quiver from the bow. You’re everything above me, you stir what’s down below. Through a long storm, but now a calm is coming. It descends when I sleep. So many dreams of you. They feel so real, but simply fantasy, illusion, I got confused between the two. It’s okay, you seem to say. With a look. Your magical look. Maybe it’s okay to hold you in my heart. In a world of so much worry, I don’t have to worry over this. My silly little fears, they all pale compared to this. You’re the love divine. You’re the place I find my bliss. You’re my touchstone. You’re my glow, and you’re the afterglow. That’s all I need to know. You’re the opening act, you’re the main event, you’re the party, the embrace, after the show. You’ve made me better. Without your beauty, and without the pain, I’d simply be the same. As I was before. Cocky, and too talky, but deeply riddled and insecure. Somehow I come out calmer through you. Better. You taught me what to do. And I love you. Flawed as I may be, it’s become more of a gentle sea. The aftermath and the afterglow. A seagull signals her call, and there’s a rising sun above a glistening blue tide. That picture is realer than the storms that brought it to be. You do all these things to me. Without the pain I’d be the same. As I was. Without your beauty, I can’t imagine where I’d be. Except to say I wouldn’t have wanted to live at all if knowing you wouldn’t be there for me. If only in my dreams. There has never been anyone so beautiful as you. So all that’s left to do is smile. My mind may wander, my heart might ponder, but my soul received what it wanted. Because I got to love you. And all that you do. And all who you are. Everything that makes you You. It doesn’t matter if it’s near or very, very far. It’s here all the time. Inside. You’re the beginning and the end. You’re the circle. I’m embraced inside. Where there are no sharp corners. You’re my safest place to hide. It doesn’t matter if I ever hear ‘I love you.’ You taught me. You teach me. It’s not about me. And yet I’m changed. I’m better. And there’s the reciprocity! Just by loving you. That glorious lemon sun rises again. Daybreak. I’m stronger in the end. Stronger for it. Stronger for you. Stronger for anyone who comes into my line of view. But if you only remember three words of this, please let them be *I love you.* ❤️