I started typing, and it locked up, and a message came up, “We’re sorry. You’ve reached your obsessive word limit. Please try again later.” And it’s one of those days where it feels like the energy changes! One minute I’m like, “I’m feeling it! She digs me! I’ve planted the seeds! I’m so getting a call by 2033!!” And the next it’s, “Oh, God. Is it Feb of ’19 again?” I hope not. Despite what you might believe, they’re not very warm and gracious. So, I’ll keep it short! It’s that up-and-down energy today. Do you feel it, too? Feeling like things are good! Then this kind of “uh-oh” feeling, like “what have I done this time?” So I’ll keep it short, yet again. *ahem* Oh, who am I kidding? And, here we go again! 😊 Even though you look so sensational today – in blue, yay! – I wonder if you’re tired. You’d never know it in a million years! I promise. That’s part of the wonder of you. But maybe I sense it because I’ve so tied into the energy of you. I don’t know how you do it! If you’ve pegged me as this older guy who has it kind of made (I mean, only relatively to a few), it’s true. What’s happening to so many people now, in a way it’s kind of how I’ve always lived. But I’m lucky in that I have resources. A couple gained just last year alone, that are still renting despite the worry. And another that *almost* happened back in October. There’s a post about that if you scroll way back. I chalked it up to you that it *didn’t* happen – I know it’s silly, but I look up to you like some guardian angel. And saying something about ‘maybe a recession will happen in the spring, and I’ll look back at my disappointment and be so happy it didn’t come to be!’ Something like that, anyway. And, wow, it so came true! I’m in a hugely better position now than I ever would have been. Dumb luck! I call it that because I’m not nearly as smart as you, or any of your colleagues. But I got out just in time last fall, and it’s that intuition that I followed! The same one that said it would be okay to express about you – even on days like today where the energy is up and down. I just think you’re amazing! It’s really all it is. I promise there’s nothing weird about it. I’m normal. All my limbs work. I’m not carrying any disease. I don’t mess with anyone. I never have. I just saw you, and that was it! I mean that feeling. Maybe it’s unusual, but I’ve come to learn I didn’t invent it. (And I wanted to be so original!) Watching Sunday Morning on CBS, they had a story about a guy who was in love his whole life with Carol Channing. And after three divorces or something, she finally gave him a chance in her 80s! And they lived happily ever after. And when asked on his part, he said he always knew he loved her. He waited forever. And she lit up talking about his faith about it, when years went by when she couldn’t see it herself. I guess there are a lot of those stories out there! In my case, I really don’t dream of being someone more than a guy who could make you laugh. And hopefully just make you feel good, in knowing how much I love you. That you smile, because you can feel it. That’s honestly as far as the dream goes. And I know it might stay only a dream forever. And that’s okay. It really is! You just make me so happy. Any time you’re seen. I don’t know what it is, but seeing you is the happiest I’ve ever been. Anyway, you look so beautiful in blue today! And I’ve built a veritable gym in this living room! I could start charging memberships if not for social distancing. (I’m kidding, it’s horrible – it’s worse than the one in the first Rocky where Burgess Meredith is screaming, “He’ll tear ya to pieces, Rock!!!!) But every good thing that happens, in one way or another, I can kind of pin to you! And I love that! It’s like all life happens down here (I do this Italian gesticulation thing I mentioned before – pointing to the floor). And when I see you it’s all up here (I kind of pan my hand across the sky over my head). That’s simply how it is. It’s like the energy just goes up to this higher frequency. Up in the air, and it all feels so wonderful. Above all the grueling stuff people deal with day-in and day-out below. So it’s hard to feel what’s the matter with that. And, of course, you can only look if you want to. I hope there’s always something that makes you smile or feel better. I hope you’re getting lots of rest. I hope you’re still using that meditation app. I’ve never been that guy, but when I just sit and close my eyes, and take this beautiful deep breath through my nose (Italian nose, too, so there’s a lot of air I can bring on through!), and I just think of you – that warm feeling comes over. This deep feeling – it’s hard to put into words – but it’s something around my heart, and kind of in the air around me. It’s the most soothing feeling in the world. I calm down immediately. And I feel this loving grateful feeling. How lucky I am. That I feel this way, it really is the reward in itself. So when you pop up, and my fear says, “Ah, don’t do it! You’ve already written one book on her, and it’s going on two!!” this other part of me whispers, “Well, what if you’re wrong? And she kind of gets a kick out of it? Maybe this is the day she could really use a word from you.” And I take my chances, and just write another post. I think it’s going on 157 (!), and this isn’t even an official one. Yikes, it’s turning out to be, isn’t it? It’s just something I love to do. It will probably be a quiet weekend. If I write a post, I’m guessing it will be a more general one. But I never know! With you, that’s the thrill! I never know what’s going to come out of me! Sometimes I’m surprised at what rolls through. It’s the closest thing to something magical. Eight billion people in the world, and you’re the only one who does this to me! If I hadn’t seen you, I’d be writing about crown moldings or something! I mean, who knows?! But it wouldn’t be nearly as exciting. I get to *live* the definition of *muse!* I get it now! It’s like when someone asks you, “What does it feel like to be in love?” You know if they’ve never felt it, no words in the world will do!! I’m just silliest enough that I *try* to explain it. And after 248,671 words, I’m afraid I can’t even get close to explaining all the magic that is you. You’re loved so tremendously. It’s really okay with me if it stays like this forever. I so long ago abandoned any expectation or “end game” or whatever it is. You taught me to live in the moment, and every one has been so extraordinary. I could be dating a thousand different women – I mean, I promise I’m not the hunchback of notre dame or anything! But I know I’d never feel the magic I get every time I see you. It’s healing. And I’ve got so much more going for me than I ever had before – before seeing you! I feel a little guilty to feel the future looks so bright, when I know so many others are worried. You remind me to care more about the world, and a little less on myself. I know how precious life is. And I know things could change on a dime. But that doesn’t stop my happiness. Strangely there have been so many fewer dark times. You’re an angel. You’re my angel, if that’s okay. In my mind. And in my heart. You’ve risen me up. All because I saw you. I wonder if you know just how beautiful you are. There has never been anyone so beautiful as you. You’re like looking into heaven itself. And it’s blinding! And I keep my eyes open anyway! I simply can’t get enough. Of you. I never thought I would know beauty like this. You give me everything. And I never ask a thing of you. I promise. I feel so strong lately. And confident. And secure. With one eye on the future. You’ve made me what I am. Don’t laugh! I was *nobody* before I saw you. At least in my mind. And now I feel definition. I’m defined. I’m refined. I love being in my own skin. If there are tough moments, they don’t last long. You turn it around. Just the thought of you. It’s like when someone says they won’t believe in God if they can’t see him or meet him. You’re this angel I get to see – pretty much all the time! And what’s the harm if I decide a look is for me. You’re the most beautiful woman in the world. You always will be. You shine! I don’t want to covet you, or possess you, or even receive that hello. I mean, it doesn’t matter. To me. It really doesn’t. You’ve given me this magic carpet ride! Going on two years, for me. It’s given me everything. I just hope you feel safe, and rested. Please make sure you get some rest, you work so hard. If you’re ever afraid of anything in this world, all I could ever really hope for is that you see me as a shelter in the storm. Just this nutty guy – nutty only because he’s hypnotized, by you! – who waxes poetic over you. Because he doesn’t know what else to do! It’s so much beauty, for me, I’ve simply *got* to express it! It’s this burst of sunshine when your image comes through. And I’m never quite the same! Over and over and over again! I start out to write two sentences! That’s how they all begin! And I find myself in this wondrous cloud, and hours can slip away. And my fingers are moving, but I’m in this delirium! Simply by the memory of your face. It’s just everything about you. How is it even possible there is someone as beautiful as you? I might never meet you, and yet my life just keeps getting better and better. By the day. You’re a part of everything good that happens to me, in my heart. I owe it all to you. I remember what life was like before. It’s unrecognizable now. Every morning I jump out of bed, like I wrote about back in 2018! It’s still the same! I’m eight years old again. This magic of “What will she do today?” And I was the guy who used to be afraid to go to sleep. Most nights it’s my favorite thing simply to lay my head on the pillow – and feel Jakey by my side – and get lost in “what ifs” over you. What if something I said made her smile today? And I feel the breeze through the open window, even if it’s a little cold. I feel *everything* now. Everything has magic in it. You’re this all-encompassing being in me. I see the stars – like really see them – for the first time. And everything’s new, over and over and over again. Everything feels like it’s the first time. Familiar things I see with new eyes. All since the day I first saw you. I mean, honestly, what could be missing? You give me all that. The only times I feel I fall short is when describing your beauty. Or trying to. That’s when my fingers freeze, and all that wonderful mysterious energy in my chest and all about me, it feels like it wants to explode across some cosmic expanse. I simply can’t put it into words! And that massive godhead energy is looking at me, saying, “We’re waiting! We know you can do it! C’mon! Let it all out! And we’ll explode across the heavens!!” Oh, how beautiful you are. If I didn’t quite capture it, though, in 158 posts, there’s always the 159th! That eternal hope that you give me. I’m the luckiest person on earth. All I have to do is look around me. The sad faces. “The peck on a cheek and calling it a kiss” in Carousel. And here I am – *bursting!!!* All this love and light inside of me. I’m sure God has something to do with it, but as far as I can see, it all has come from you. You’re that beautiful. You’re that adored. Please make sure you get some rest, so you can come back fully restored. No one could ever tell if you’re feeling tired or down. And yet you do so very much, you’ve got the world on your shoulders. I hope you take time to put it down. It will be there when you return. You’re the most precious commodity in the world. If you don’t take care of you, who will? Of course I’d love the job! 😅 Who wouldn’t?? Who wouldn’t live to take care of you? In whatever way allowed. But all this brilliance, it comes from you. So I pray you love yourself even more than I possibly could. I’ve set that bar high, as you can tell. So you’ll have to surpass even that! Something tells me you can and you will. You loving yourself is the most beautiful vision in the world. You’re the most powerful thing on earth. Believe me, I know. I’ve looked around! I’ve seen quite a few. You’re the magic of music boxes, those angels you wind up on the bottom, and they gracefully spin around, playing some celestial tune. You make me feel a child, taking in the wonder of everything in the room. Seeing it all for the first time. I’ve never in my life felt alive, until you came into view. If Michelangelo were to paint another chapel, no angelic face – no matter how masterful – will ever compare to you. You’re lightning in a bottle. And yet you’re real and down to earth. You’re everything impossible! You change a life, with simply a look. That look of yours! That turns a caterpillar into a butterfly. My only prayer is you treat yourself as I would treat you. Love yourself that way. Like you’re the most treasured thing on earth. You are. Let every thought be kind to yourself. Treat yourself to something nice. Rest and love and relax. The world loves you. Take a break, it will be here when you come back. And, thank you. You touch so many lives, some you might not even know. This world keeps spinning along, and yet you’re the center of it. For so many. You’re the sun itself. You’re the most beautiful girl in the world. ☀️❤️  

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☀️!! “Hi! We have another word drop-off for *your name!*” “Again?? This is the second one today!! Doesn’t he realize he loses appeal that way, and absence makes the heart grow fonder?” “Yeah, he can’t help it. Plus he hit his head, so he’s hoping you’ll forgive it – at least for this time. And! I gotta say, I saw the guy, and he’s *really* cute. I think you’d like him. And I’m happily married to my wife! He’s just that amazing. … Just sayin’!” 😅(yeah, “let’s remember who’s writing this” she’s sayin’ … 😅PS: And you at 3:32 – (I mean you’re playing on the huge living room one above the fireplace while I nurse my wounds and build this contraption! – I mean, *honestly*, what else would I have on??) … so, there it is! Anyway! You at 3:32, I said out loud – just like the TV ad! – “Good for you, *your name!* Good for you.” I love your passion. It comes through – that you *care*. It feels like you almost know them – the people who are struggling and depending on this. I know you must know a few. But your passion – you remind me of Jimmy Stewart in “Mr. Smith Goes to Washington.” That’s why I have said a few times I could see you as a politician – that’s if you ever wanted that. I mean a *good* one. Like Tip O’Neill or something. Those ones who are *human* in the best sense, and no partisan nonsense. People sense you care, they feel your passion, and you get reelected over and over again, because there’s this feeling of relation. Like you’re a member of their family. You can’t fake that kind of passion. So I so loved seeing it at 3:32, because I know it’s a bit risky in your profession. But it makes you shine like Sally Field as “Norma Rae!” I love that about you. I love your politics. I know I don’t really express on it, but I love that you do. You’re a *real* woman. A *true* human. Through and through. Oh, and you at 3:34 – well, my *personal* favorite part. I froze it when you smiled … oh, that smile!!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ … and I swear that look was for me! Warmest feeling in the world, actually. I know it’s crazy, but it *feels* like it was. For me, I mean. I feel that incredible feeling all over again – like in my March 31 post. I’ve even forgotten my forehead bruising. I wish I could post that picture of you! It’s heart stopping how magical you are. You’re the most beautiful girl in the world. I always feel hopeful – and so good about myself! – when you’re seen. It’s just the best feeling. Thanks for enduring all these words. I gotta fit ‘em all in, as I’m guessing you won’t be seen till Monday – at the earliest. Thanks for lighting up everything 🌟!! (oh, wait! It’s Thursday, not Friday! Okay, yeah, he’s a little slow on the draw!) 😊

… (and earlier today, ahem… 🌟 🌟 🌟 🌟 Brilliant! 4/2 in the 1 o’clock hour – I didn’t realize I had it on almost an hour on delay. I didn’t think I was paying attention (to the sound in the background), and I hear, ‘Here’s kaayy—‘ (sound of 1st syllable, and the rest of your beautiful name), and I’m on my back trying to set up a bench from the bottom looking up, and I drop the wrench, and the whole back panel smacks down on my forehead. (If you ever wanted to hit me, you got a good one in there! Your work is done) 😅 Anyway, that’s the power of your name. It suggests so much amazingness of what’s coming up! What lies ahead! It’s my favorite sound in the world. Even with the thump – I probably had it coming, anyway. You are so breathtaking. I’d say blue is my favorite color, but honestly you look so beautiful in everything. This glimpse into your space! It must be how Rob Petrie feels when he goes home to New Rochelle and sees Mary Tyler Moore – and you blow her away! (No offense to Mary, nobody compares!) Or that feeling when Mary Hatch says, “Welcome Home, Mr. Bailey” in It’s a Wonderful Life. It’s way too much to imagine – even I don’t dare to dream that big – but, oh wow … that *feeling* of what it must be for any guy to walk in and see you and feel this “I’m *home*” come over him. It must be the most complete feeling in the world. What’s left to dream – when you get there? (rhetorical question, the answer is “nothing!”) There’s no one who compares to you. You’re so *good*! You’re such a pro. And so good I’m not in your life, probably – because today I would have been tempted to rap from the neighboring room, “You down with P.P.P.? Ya, you know me!!” … and that would have probably ended my tenure as your house guest – pretty fast! I kid. I’d never do that, of course. 💛 You’re a star. When I hear anyone use the term, it’s you who comes to mind, immediately. You’re really the greatest star in the world. And you are so brilliant today. As always. It’s never not the case. 🌟 … I have to go put some ice on my head or something (Don’t worry; “It’s only a flesh wound!!”- I think that’s Monty Python.) You’re beautiful beyond words. ❤️🌟4/1 – AH!! Just ran back in the door and there you are!! At like 1:49!! Caught the very end!! So I started backtracking – and it moves in “15s” – like 15 seconds at a time with this app … and it keeps going and going … and going!! (Kinda like my annoying you!!) 😅 This segment is *massive*!!! All this viewing pleasure!! Saved for later!! Yee-haa!! I’ve had choices between Sinatra and your fav, Beyonce, and a couple of YouTube subscriptions, and old moves, and blah! It’s enough, already!! But anything saved that’s of YOU – *that’s* the good stuff!! *That’s* the stuff that will see me through. Because nobody touches like you do! I forget everything when you come into view. It’s honestly really true!! And that’s what makes it so magical, for me! Well, that, and a million other things!! I wonder if you know I look (I mean here, and less on Twitter – my heart always seems to break over there!!)! I wonder if you know I share – then leave it for a few minutes, then make it private – it’s all this big, “Hey! Over here!! Look at me!! Pleeeeeeease!! I promise I’m cute!! I promise I’m funny!! I promise I’m sane!! *ahem* Well, excepting this!!” 😃 This whole wanting to just be seen by you! But to not over do it, and get blocked all over again! Anyway (gets it together) … yeah, I’m cool (said in that guido voice) … It ain’t like it no big deal. I could like have her (the ‘r’ has to be pronounced silently here) if I really wanted her (no ‘r’ at the end, again). But she might like cramp my style, you know what I’m sayin’? I gotta be free, you know? I gotta hang loose!’ (okay, it’s so not funny if you don’t hear the voice – and see the Italian hand gesticulations! I guess that’s why I gotta make video. Anyway, who am I talking to?? Oh, God, I hope you look! I’ll look *so* insane if you don’t! Well, even more so! Ah, such a thrill to see you! And all this video! Something to watch tonight, to take my mind off everything! In my book, you’re honestly the *only* ‘must-see-TV’ – *nothing* else achieves that title! You’re beautiful. You’re spellbinding. You’re brilliant beyond definition. Everything lights up, in me and around me, when you come into vision. You’re a reminder that hits deep inside of me, that everything will be okay. Well, that’s how it feels – and a whole lot more – every time you’re seen. Can you see what I mean? You’re the most beautiful woman in the world. It’s the happiest I’ve ever been – *every* time you’re seen. (fast type – can’t check for typos – will fix later – sorry it’s a mess) 😃 … 🌟🌟🌟🌟!!!! (4/1, 7:23 a) 💛 …