The way you love someone you can’t see, and don’t really know, but get a good vibe from behind the partition. Ah!! Those are words *YOU* wrote!!! We are soulmates. The most powerful three words that could ever be … well, besides those other three!! And my eyes just lock in where you wrote them. It’s the most powerful sentence in the world. Talk about words having power! I find myself going back and gazing at them – it looks so majestic how you wrote it! And my eyes kind of dance around them, because they’re too powerful to look at directly – it’s like looking at the sun. Oh, I could look for hours regardless! I’m already blinded by your love. So powerful because it came from you. I hang on every word. You captivate your audience. I’m so spellbound by you. And yet I saw it eight days late. I’ve prayed so often for a sign. Something to go with that mesmerizing look of yours!! Just that one added clue! Although there is nothing more overwhelming inside than to receive a look from you! I know I might seem crazy, but the funny thing is I’m actually pretty sane. Boringly so in some ways! Like Kevin Costner in Field of Dreams. He says, “I’m the least crazy person I know.” To a very unconvinced James Earl Jones. There is that side of me. That rational side that battles with the intuition. “How can I know she even remembers I exist at all? Or that she ever even thinks of me?” And yet those three words get me kind of close. And yet that’s where the doubt crawls in. “It couldn’t possibly be for me. There’s *got* to be another explanation.” It’s the strangest thing. I haven’t allowed myself to feel anything of that elation I should. I ask my intuition, “Is it possible? Was that for me?” And I only feel this air that is thick, like that quiet breeze before a summer’s storm, portending something bigger. Like something is rumbling and yet it’s not seen on the horizon. Not yet. But something is gathering, that’s for sure. I just don’t know what it is. Oh, to be your friend. Just to know it and feel it, even if things stay exactly the same! Just as they are! *That’s* the feeling, though! I can almost feel it now. That knowing!! This new warmth that adds to what’s already here, taking residence in my heart. In a full-time kind of way. Like those people who collect flowers and press them under glass, this would be that newest glorious rose to add to the collection. Something I could always carry in my heart. That it’s real, because you said so! And I never have to doubt it again. Even if things stay exactly the same. Just as they are now, I know I’d never be the same. That’s when I’d be Tom Hanks in “Big” when he’s dancing down the street! After seeing Elizabeth Perkins (or was that “Splash!” with Daryl Hannah), and singing “Mr. Mango on my shoulderrrrr!!!” to fellow grocers who want to say, “I’ll have what he’s having!!” But, oh, that’s another movie! But that elation!! Like Gene Kelly in “Singing in the Rain!” Where it’s not even a care what others would think! I’d be pirouetting (if I could! It might be ugly!) down the street singing, “I’m her friend!!” And still being discreet, as to who it is! You’re *that* special!! You’re *that* wonderful!!! You’re bells and whispers. You’re lavender and juniper. You’re messages that come in my sleep. Your heavenly blues, and your softest red – it’s the shape of you, and the shape of things to come. It’s the way you move your head. It’s the quality of your voice. It’s the most wonderful sound in the world!!! And all of these things are dancing among this energy – this energy of you!!! The unseen thing, that I feel most of all. When I do listen to my intuition, it’s often how I know when you’ll show up at all! Sometimes I get it to the very minute!! The times I fail, it’s when I’m too much in my head. I feel it with you. It’s the you that will remain when all else will change and go away someday. Someday very far away. It’s the realest part of all! Everything else is just an expression of you. It’s all that grows out of you and expresses. As mind-blowing as it is! And yet what I feel is that deepest part. It’s the feeling of you I fall in love with, over and over and over again. I hope you like my feeling, too. I’m aware of my own essence only when I am feeling you, too. For the first time, I’m aware of what my own soul feels like! I can almost put it into words! Like they interact in some kind of play. And it’s the most beautiful thing! Something in yours lets mine feel complete. And that’s why I say I’d be so happy simply as a friend. That’s why I say I have no bigger expectations. Because it’s the feeling that matters. I feel it so completely with you. In the way the great spiritual people say “What you do to others, you do to yourself.” I can feel it for the first time as actually a deep truth! With you. It must be why I only want the most wonderful things for you. Even if as simply a friend, and two hundred miles around the bend, the feeling I feel when I look into your eyes – or when I bring you into mind – is of this melding of energies – it’s something real. It’s something present. It’s something extra-ordinary! It really *does* go beyond time and space! I’ve never felt this way before!! About anyone or anything. “We are soulmates.” Those three words I’ve gotten so lost upon. Maybe what I’m expressing is part of the definition of that word itself. It’s the most loving feeling. It has this softness. And something like a euphoria running all through it and around. These angel-hair gossamer strings. Dancing, it is so gentle. And yet it’s so very very strong. It’s the first time I’ve ever felt so truly alive, inside and out. And I know for sure it’s you. You’re always the one. And I guess that’s why there’s no expectation. How could there be? And, why? The feeling doesn’t depend upon any relationship agreement. Or on whether you’re seen or unseen. You’re always so deeply felt, with me. But just to know I am your friend. To say, “I got it!! It’s real!! I never have to doubt it again!!” I suppose even that isn’t necessary, after all. When the feeling is realer than words. That wish is just my mind’s insecurity, when I should remember to be strong. I’ve never felt such love before. I’ve never known anything could feel so pure. You’ve elevated me to some higher place. This playing, dancing and intertwining, this all-expanding love. It doesn’t ask for anything. No “what’s in it for me.” I’m simply so, so, *so!* happy when I see you. Something deep within me feels complete. And I’m filled with this overwhelming love for you that can bring me to tears, when I so rarely ever cried before. You’re that precious. You’re that treasured. I feel protective, and untethered! I only want what’s best for you. I love how you succeed! I so love watching you thrive!! What’s in it for me? Oh, everything!! You’ve made me come alive! Seeing you has been the most glorious thing that’s ever happened to me inside! It’s like I was truly born the moment I saw you. And all the past was prologue. And I’ve come in to who I’m supposed to be. Seeing you and feeling your magic has awakened absolutely everything inside of me!! You’ve carried the key. It’s how I wrote – so early on – when feeling overwhelmed and looking elsewhere, my heart would gently nudge, “No, it’s right there.” Gently and lovingly pointing to your face, to remind. You really truly are beauty defined. Every time I see your face, I come undone!! And it’s this way all the time. You’ve unlocked a greatness in me. And I never thought I’d ever write a sentence like that! Certainly not about me!! All this magic and this intertwining, all this spinning and stars colliding. And yet at the essence, at the very core, it’s simply love. That wonderful indescribable thing that powers the whole thing! I know it’s love, because it doesn’t ask for a thing. It’s only my momentary weakness and doubts that are asking for something concrete – that is, when they do. A word where I know, “Ah! Now I know it for *sure!!* I didn’t make up the whole thing!!” And you consider me a friend!! *sigh* – a sigh must always follow that! In the meantime I can pretend. That those words you wrote are for me. Today I only meant to thank you. I don’t know how I got into all that! And perhaps it’s true I only know you so well. And yet somehow it feels like I know everything. I know you’re the most beautiful person I have ever seen. Or ever will see again. ❤️