Spending Saturday morning writing songs about you at the piano. ☀️ With a cup of coffee. It’s a nice way to get lost and found. You’re beautiful. …
Sometimes that something you love feels so far away. You’re living upstairs again in that head that knows you’re now up there, too, and says, “Okay, boys, let’s load in the thoughts!” And, those thoughts pile in on top of each other. This thought. That thought. Hey, how about another thought? Doesn’t matter if they go together. We’ll just mash ‘em all up and make something out of it. As my Italian uncle might say when making a masterpiece on the stove, “This-a looks good! Put it in!” But, it’s not so good. So, you take a deep breath, step away, and get back to that something so far away that you love. You concentrate on it, and you feel this burst in your heart. That something you love is *right there* and you get that dreaming-while-awake feeling. And, like all dreams that you recall in the morning, you are hard pressed to remember a *beginning* to that dream. You remember being in it, and you remember awakening, but, like your own birth, you can’t remember the exact moment the dream started. You’re just *in it*. You know that something you love isn’t so far away, because it’s in your heart. That rambling mind upstairs thinks it’s calling the shots, but it’s that one below that gives you inspiration that fills you. It lights up the space in you. It gently soothes you. It grounds you. It says, “It’s okay. I’m right here. That thing you love.” Everything is flying around in space, and there’s no need to reach out and try to grab anything. You’ve got it. You don’t have to touch it physically or own it or possess it. You’ve got it right in your heart. That “real” stuff outside you is constantly in a state of changing, anyway. But, that something or someone you love, when you connect to it in your heart, that has a kind of eternalness. It’s steady and unchanging. You feel it in your chest and then it gently pervades all over you and about you. It guides you today. That’s where the real masterpiece is going on. The real thing. And, those thoughts upstairs are just breezes blowing by. You’re in your deepest love and joy. And, you’re lighting up the space today. How lucky anyone will be to just get a glimpse of you! That love of yours. ❤️
Like the song, I’ve got my love to keep me warm. I don’t even have to look! The feeling of you is always a heartsound away. It never ends, apparently. That wonderful feeling of you is something made of forever. I knew it, too!! I always knew there was something eternal about you. Your spectacular face. You’re the gift who keeps on giving. Endlessly! Long after something is through, you find it never ended! It just takes a different point of view. Love takes on different forms. Changing costumes! But it remains unbending. And because of you, I’ve grown. But it’s nice to know you’re only a comment after a comment away, twice removed. It’s nice to feel slightly in your neighborhood, figuratively speaking. Any jealousies or expectations are healed and long removed. It’s that feeling of a friend. It’s just something I feel in my soul, about you. Thank you. There’s so much good stuff about to begin! It’s not scary or sad to think of a fresh beginning. Because your love runs through the whole thing! Everything is going to be okay. Better than that, it’s great. Already! Just as it is. You’re always in my heart. And that’s the nicest feeling in the world. I can never lose that. No matter what, you’re always the most sensational girl. I’m older! I can say that! And, of course, well, ‘girl’ rhymes with ‘world’ (thank you, every other song ever written!) I’ve been feeling really okay. I feel your love, without the pain. It’s nice to only be a few tweets removed, but always feeling your song, inside of me. ❤️
I know I’ve never learned to use the ‘return key’ to break up the mess into paragraphs! It’s just how I like to do it! So, thank you, for overlooking that. The first paragraph was from January, the second from just now – – hastily rushed out while a bird is screaming in my ear! So, please be forgiving. Happiest weekend to you!!! ☀️😌
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I’ll be back with a new show in the fall – – or whatever you want to call it! (Preview stuff in July!) September 22nd for real. Video of me being stupid! Somehow it comes naturally! 👀 Sorry, that was my self “plug” right there! Speaking of which, “THERE SHE IS!!” is still in e-book and paperback (search ‘todd demartinis’ on amazon)! That’s all. Thanks!! For everything. 😊 ❤️ You are magic shining through. 🌟
(pictured: what’s bloomed outside my house! I’ll post a couple more in comments!)
