Thank you to all of you!! I’ll respond to all soon. You guys are the best, truly. I’m blown away by how amazing you are. I hope you’re doing okay through all this. Thanks also for the concern. I guess the Easter weekend’s been a time for new starts. And, I’m doing really good, thanks! Since I stopped looking, I’ve been kicking ass on all the projects I’ve neglected! 😅 And it feels great!! As for me, I have only good feelings about her and the last twenty-one months. It’s given me a lot of gifts. And I’m feeling grateful! I got to feel really truly in love for the first time in my life. And in such a unique way. I only have good feelings for her and the experience. I learned so much. She’s been good luck, too! I almost bought a property last year and she’s kind of the reason I didn’t – and I’m in a better place now for it. Just felt guided all the while. I’m feeling really excited over new plans and dreams! It’s all really good. I hope you’re doing okay, too!! I know there were a few readers along the way who have been in their own pain over someone, and kind of wishing it would work out for me. Maybe in some way the “luck” would spread over to them, too! I hope you found that person who really touches your soul, and always will, even when the body gets old, and the only communication is, “What’s that now?! Speak up!!” 😊 But, if not, I hope there’s been something good here. I can tell you something broke in me last Thursday, and I felt such resentment and anger and all sorts of bile I had buried down – because I thought, I must be *good* and there’s no room for any negative feeling. Well, all that came up! It’s got to be healthily expressed one way or another. But, once I got past all the feeling sorry for myself, I really looked at my blessings. The whole thing also gave me a huge sense of self-worth. And that’s permanent. For fun, I allowed myself to let go, and I wrote up this sky’s-the-limit essay of how I expect my life to look in a couple of years. I realized that, as crazy fun as it was, I really *can* create this picture! I bet you might feel that way, too, if you try a similar exercise after letting go of a situation. I can be loving in how I live my life, but people who are allowed inside will have to prove it and earn it, and that door can close. I always think of it as virus software, or a “firewall.” Of what worth is the computer to work beautifully and effectively, if *any* influence – family, friend or otherwise – is allowed access to create damage internally? Those firewalls and virus protection are there for a good reason. Anyway – that was long – but you probably expect that by now. It’s a beautiful day. I hope you’re all enjoying it!! My only advice for a few of you who are getting over anything is to *feel* all the bile and junk you didn’t allow yourself to feel. Express it – but not to her!! 😅 And once it’s out, don’t be surprised if what’s *really* there underneath the hurt is good stuff. People decide not to be with each other for some really deep-seated reasons. And people choose their own journeys for good or bad. But underneath all the storming, souls can still love each other. Then, write that essay when you feel up for it. Count your blessings and imagine the most ridiculously awesome life you expect to be living in, say, 2025! Don’t be surprised if some of it sticks! That your soul loves some of what it’s hearing! You might feel this freedom! And this heaviness lifting away. And an unshakable feeling of self worth. You deserve it!! Thanks so much for allowing me to express so freely, and have it be met with such warmth! It’s such a great feeling that even the saddest feelings I write seem to resonate. Like it truly *is* universal. We’re all connected. No matter *what* you’re feeling, someone else is feeling it, too. I’m kind of taking a break for now, but when the urge strikes to post some longwinded stuff, you’ll be the first to know. 😊 … I had Sunset Boulevard on the screen while building a heavy bag stand. I realize I *do* have a type. That artistic, beautiful and spunky kind of woman who excites your mind as much as your heart. She’s out there. He’s out there. Whatever floats your boat. Write that silly essay of how your life will look. Keep your self-worth high, always. And your soul will invite in what it wishes while you take care of important things. You’re beautiful. You’re loved! Tons! ❤️

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9BU_YZUjgRw … “Social distancing” 1950 style …

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