You were in my dreams again. I only remember because Jakey woke me up at 3 a.m. (to go out). Do you know how that is? Something wakes you from a dream you know you would have otherwise never remembered? Anyway, it was a typical dream for me with this common theme. I’m auditioning for a play, like I used to do in the old days. And, for whatever few talents I have, that was something that was my favorite part of the job. Because I was so good at cold readings that I usually landed the part. It was really fun for me! It was the standing in front of 2,000 people in a standing-room-only theater that had me almost passing out on the floor. I admire *so* many things about you, I easily lose count. But one of the many is how you can be in front of a big audience – moderating, even! – and you – as always – come off as so cool! So refined. So elegant. You’re divine. Anyway! It’s this kind of sad recurring dream I get. It’s like I’m back in 2005 or something, and I’m auditioning – or find myself cast – in plays again. And there are always old acquaintances there. But in the dream I can feel they hate me. But I don’t know what I did. It feels like maybe jealousy over something, something I can’t see. Maybe, I don’t know, but it’s certainly hatred. In those days, I was so easily influenced. I had low self-esteem and I would let anybody in, even if they meant harm. And in the dream I realize, “Oh, I’m not wanted here.” But, how did I get here at all? Well, I guess that’s typical of dreams. So, I’m there, and a little uncomfortable. I’m getting glares from people I don’t even know, and it occurs to me, these friends spread lies about me to them. So, to get to the point! I tend to have this recurring dream once in a while, and it’s unpleasant. My feeling is, “I now really live it – that the past is the past – so why does it still pop up in my dreams from time to time?” So, here’s the best part. I’m waiting at this table, and suddenly you’re here!! And the whole feeling changes!! It’s you! Where small business becomes big business!! And that magic of your rapid-fire delivery! I know it’s before your time, but it felt like when Richie was in trouble on Happy Days – being picked on by some bully – and Fonzie walked in and just stood at the door and crossed his arms – to make his presence known. And the live audience went wild!!! She’s here!!! And the whole feeling changes!! That’s how it was! In that recurring dream that always feels the same, the feeling immediately changed to something uplifting! With the snap of a finger! You were there, and I noticed I was dressed kind of nice. I realized my own power. That I had some self-worth, and I wasn’t going to let anyone stomp it out. I saw them as cowards. And you looked at me. You leaned in to say something to me, and I knew the whole place was watching. You touched my hand and said, “So, do you want to blow this place?” Or something like that, and you led me by my hand. I stood up and you hugged me!!! I’m so not the guy who ever has wanted ‘arm candy’ or whatever it’s called. Most of my relationships are virtual, and you know I tend to be a bit reclusive. So that’s never been my style. But it was heaven to have you there with me. Saving the day. Saving my feelings. And I swear a light followed me. Wherever we were in that dream, the rest of the room had this brown tinge. But where *you* were – with me! – there was this light and this happiness. And you led me out the door – you seemed happy to be seen with me, too, which was overwhelming!! – and it was the most beautiful day outside when we left that dusty dingy place behind, and you said, “So, where did you park?” And suddenly the air was filled with a Taylor song, I’m pretty sure it was “I Think He Knows.” And, wow!! I get that recurring dream – the version without you – from time to time, and it always lowers my energy. Kind of like those anxiety dreams where you’re at college and you just then realize you hadn’t done any work that semester! (I get that one, too.) Or I’m on stage on opening night, and I realize only then, I forgot to learn my lines. But I know if I hadn’t been awakened at 3 a.m. by Jakey needing to go out, I *never* would have remembered this dream! It was fresh in my mind, because I was awakened during it. And it fulfilled my suspicion! Some days I wake up – on those mornings I can’t remember any dreams at all, but I *feel* better. And I always suspect I was dreaming of you! This time I had proof!! And I love how you appeared! The moment I see you the energy changes! And you remind me of my self worth. Without saying a word!! You do that a lot!! And you rescued me out of that place, when in the past I’d just suffer through it. Like my own personal Fonzie like I dreamed of when I was a kid! And, you were so beautiful!! Just like in real life!! You were wearing a blue dress! Or was it purple? But I *so* remember your face! And your soft hair. You looked at me – that “look!” I so embrace! – and immediately I felt this confidence. That I was not beyond saving. That I could do almost anything. Just because you were there! Kind of like you were Bruce Willis in that movie “The Kid” from 2000! When he visits himself as a kid in 1968. And he says to the trembling boy, “I’m here today.” It was so good to see you there! I’m not sure I said a word to you!! I was speechless, like I imagine I would be if ever I see you in person. Not an uncomfortable one! Just overwhelmed. But the loving feeling was so strong! It filled up the whole space!! It was so powerful, I swear you felt it, too. And that’s how we communicated. You saved me in my dream!! I’m so happy Jakey woke me, so I remembered it!! You’re really the most beautiful person in the world. I love it when you appear. Even when it’s bad news you’re sharing, all I see is you. And you take away my fear. I hope somebody does that for you. That’s if you need it at all. You are such an incredibly special person. I’m so happy I fell for you. I know it’s a bit unorthodox, to say the least! But the rewards have been oh so real, for me. I said I want to live my life like you’re actually in it, even if you never are. And that’s been the best decision!! Because, in so many ways, it *feels* like you are. You show up in my dreams and you save the day! Filling me with this light and this love and saving me from pain. And I can write to you during the day, and maybe once in a while – through all my gushing! – a word or two makes it through to you. Hopefully just one little thing in the pile that touches your heart. And that look of yours!! Oh, I die inside when I see you. That’s when everything stops!! I know it’s been a while due to unforeseen events, but even the memory of it is so exciting! It’s so calming and so centering. You have this beauty I have never ever seen before. So, for me, something that seems so crazy, has had real life-changing benefits! I love how I see you. I know you’re human, but you’re a goddess to me. You save the day, just like Fonzie! You even do it in my dreams!! Who knew?! Your reach is so long. You have effects on so many! Even if it’s a quiet day where it seems there’s not that much attention, please know the world is shining on you. You’re in so many hearts and minds, it’s beyond anything you can even imagine! Mine is just one example. As far as people go, you’re everything I ever dreamed!! And I know you’ll be okay. You’re so special, I wish I had the words to say it. You’re the wonderful stuff of dreams, in every possible way. ❤️

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☺️AH!!! You’re the most beautiful woman who has ever lived!!! And your sense of style! Something about the softness of your face. Your features, oh, dear God, there is just nothing on earth like you. And your jacket today. This sense of style you always have. Today you look like you’d be in a street scene in Breakfast at Tiffany’s, and you’d steal the scene completely away from Audrey Hepburn – and she wouldn’t like it!! Not one bit! Well, too bad for her – no offense, Audrey. You look so fresh! Re-freshed!! Alive!! And staggering. And so young. It’s simply unbelievable just how beautiful you are. And it’s so nice! This was always my wish! A heads-up to know when you’ll be seen. I thought for sure I missed it, due to the timing, and I turned on the sound, and there you are!! Of course I had to look back to see if I had missed anything, and it turns out I didn’t!! My timing was really close – again! And I’m tempted to say, “What did I win!!!” to an empty room. Well, except for Jakey! My old self says, “remember the ‘old days?’ When we had to go through reams of footage? Or stay in for hours, just in the hope of seeing her? Now we get some warming!” Eh, warning! The warming happens either way! You’re so completely the most beautiful girl in the world. Thanks for brightening the days. Your reach is tremendous! You’re touching hearts all the time. I hope you always know this. 🌟💕  

🌟🌟Double dose! *Wow!!!* … That’s all I got. 😅 You’re so brilliant. You just spoke extemporaneously, and never missed a note! Never missing a beat. I don’t know how you retain such information and then convey it so effortlessly. But I can tell you so love what you do! And that feeling really comes through. It must be tied to that. There’s so much wonder and beauty wrapped up in you. You’re invaluable. You’re a gift. In a world where nothing’s perfect, you’re perfect. It’s all about who you are. A guy could spend a lifetime sifting through all the beauty that is you, trying to figure it all out!! And never regret a moment. It’s the best time ever spent. ❤️  

🌟🌟🌟Ah! Make that three!! A triple treat!!! And you’re a triple threat!! You can do everything!! A quadruple threat! A quintuple one! I’d keep going, but my vocabulary isn’t that good! But, you get the idea!! You’re so indescribably beautiful!! Thank you for being there on the good days and the bad. If I can let you know a little secret, mine are all wonderful, because of you. ❤️