You’re a survivor. You’ll get through. “Love is Blind?” Oh, I watched all of it, too! I felt so sad for the ones who had their hearts broken. That’s tough to watch. I kind of feel it with them. Yes, I’m getting over someone. Took a major step toward it yesterday. You know that feeling when something happens that kind of puts an end to something … then you wake up the next morning (or in the middle of the night) and that horrible feeling comes over you of what your reality is? And then I feel all that bile and some anger and rotten feelings I didn’t allow myself to express or feel. Not publicly. Just privately. But it’s this misery. Then you check in to see if there’s any clue with how they’re doing through social media? And then you realize that’s never a good feeling to do. And then you’re like, So, what do I do now? What do I dream about? The future looks so blue and sad. And then you wonder, Did I make a mistake? If I hadn’t said anything, were good things about to happen?? And you can drive yourself crazy like that. And then you remember if somebody likes you, or if something is meant to be, it shouldn’t 100% be on me. And, you’re so right. You deserve someone who will be those things. If they can’t see how amazing you are – and you are!! – then they’ll never see it if they know they can always have you, just waiting there, with no self worth. Or even if it’s not like that at all, that’s what it looks like, anyway. It just hurts. And the worst is if you know the one they’re with, and you made the mistake of checking in on their bragging, and you just feel this disgust, when you normally don’t feel that kind of feeling at all! Then you know you’ve got to just step away from it all!! And stop it! For once and for all. Yeah, well, that’s how it’s kinda been. I’m slowly now just going to focus on me, without worrying over whether I’m good enough or where I’m lacking. And just compete with me. I’ve never been in love before. It was quite an experience. I’m glad I came off with at least a little bit of class in it. Well, I hope I did. She taught me to keep it real. So I don’t want to pretend I don’t feel those feelings, while always focusing on the positive. I’m human for sure. But inside it hurts so bad. To feel a dream fade away. The greatest dream you have ever known. I so hope you’re healing from all of that. I’m just kind of starting through it. I had to let go, because it was slowly kind of killing me inside. I just wouldn’t allow myself to admit it. But for all the bliss I feel about her, I could feel my body kind of slipping away. Telling me I wasn’t living naturally. But, you’re a survivor. You’ll get through. You’re so beautiful and kind. If they don’t see it, I do. You have the whole world in front of you. I so appreciate being here for you. And I love how you’ve been there for me. Knowing that pain and misery that someone else might not understand. You’ve really been a friend. It’s nice to know I can count on you. To make me feel better. To let me know it’s not all over. It’s not the end. It’s just kind of a feeling you provide. I can’t think of being in love again. Oh, wow, no. Not for a very long time. But I can imagine happiness and sunny days, and I think of friends like you. It does feel nice inside. You’re going to be amazing. You’re going to feel beautiful. You already are both those things, even if you don’t feel it yet. I wouldn’t trade a moment of it. I just don’t really understand it. How it came to be or why, but I take full responsibility because every part of me came alive. I know people have bigger problems right now. Everybody does. So I’m tempted to suffer in silence, but I feel much better talking with you. You’re a hero. You really are. You’re a survivor. I love the strength in you. I swear this pain has made you even *more* attractive to others. It’s hard to put into words, but I can see it and I can feel it. This feeling that I know you’ll make it through. And, maybe so will I. You’re appreciated so much. And you remind me there are all kinds of love. And any of those kinds can grow and rise up, into something magical and filled with this special kind of sunlight. Thank you for being here for me. ❤️

… You’re wonderful. I know you’ll be strong. We’re all in this together. If a virus has taught us anything, it’s that we’re all so interconnected, no matter how we pretend we’re not. It doesn’t choose based on fame or income or feelings of self-importance or superiority. It does have one thing right about it – it sees us all the same. In a way it’s bringing us all together, even if we have to stand apart separately. For a while, anyway. It reminds me to be nice to others, even if we don’t agree. And my pain is nothing compared to what so many others are experiencing. Not even close! And that’s humbling. Thank you for reminding me. Thank you for showing me some. Love, that is. I realize this is the way to healing. To not close up, but to find a shoulder. Someone who will listen without judgment. I’m so happy that it’s you. ❤️  You’re going to be great!!! ☀️