Are you the sensitive one? Always the odd one? The “black sheep?” The ones where others could get their joy by using you as a lower-placed bar by which they could feel superior? If anyone comes to mind when reading this, do you feel a sense of dread – strong or subtle – in engaging?
In vulnerable moments do you even feel a sense of trembling, and a sensation the pain goes so deep, it’s somewhere below even your conscious thoughts? The kind of stuff that can show up in nightmares and dreams with all sorts of agitation and imagery? That your psyche is this bottomless well and you can’t even begin to process the ‘how and why’ it came to be, yet when you unmask it a bit you can find yourself trembling to your core?
Yet then there are the lighter moments; polite talk and appearances, yet if someone were watching it as if it were a movie, they might say, “It seemed fake. I didn’t really believe the performances.” … Then, onto “Part 2.” …
Part 2: On the other hand, do you have someone that feels like home? Your heart opens and there is a sigh of “aaaah” somewhere deep inside you when there? It could be a person … or luckily a few. It could be an animal … or luckily a few.
THIS group is your family. Whatever names come to mind – Here is your Family ❤️ … even if some of the names are Big Mama Greenie (the parrot) or Mr. Shakes, and hopefully a name or two that might actually be listed on a social security card. 😀
If feeling fear and guilt and obligation when dealing with relationships, and feeling too immersed and stuck and trapped by the feelings- feelings your true higher self does not want you to feel, at least be sure you can clearly define your family based on that “Part 2:” These ones where you feel that unconditional love that comes from the god place within.
For your own god light to shine that same love onto countless many others, sometimes the most difficult conflict is remembering you must treat yourself with the same fierce protective love as you would all those listed in Your “Part 2.”
If you felt a sense of freedom and weight lifting from that deeper part of you that longs to hear this, but then followed by a sense of sadness and guilt and fear, … it at least should help to reset your inner dictionary’s definition strongly to that Part 2.
These are the ones who would sacrifice their own life for yours if falling off a cliff.
Know it’s all we can do to be loving to anyone we meet and encounter. But, remember to be as loving to yourself as your fiercest protectors in that beautiful “Part 2” would be for you.
You’re no good to anyone if you let yourself go off the cliff.
You have tremendous love deep inside you. Listen to that deepest part of you to heal so you can let it flow through even more brilliantly.
I love you. ❤️🌟🌱
