… just a waking-up ramble without thinking! Please forgive me if I say anything that hits too close to the bone! You know I have a vivid imagination! The more you think, the more you get stuck. Caught between a rock and a hard place. So you stop thinking, and get into your gut. It’s comfortable and it’s not. It’s fulfilling and it isn’t. Stuck, stuck, stuck. And the best movement becomes nothing. None at all, and hope it’s delivering. The chains are wider than your wrists. You can slip out, but you put your power in external events. Instead of coming from inside. And that mind, it spins and it spins and it spins. Seeing a trap in every corner. Seeing sadness in every outcome. It’s a good time to breathe. Your thoughts are not serving you, but your intuition is. You once were envious of those locked in, now you’re envious of those who are free. Instead of inside, the answer’s blowing in the trees. My mind works in a similar fashion; “If not him, it will only be another. God forbid someone as darn cute and gushing like there’s no other!” But maybe the grandfather clause would kick in. And I’d move up a couple steps in the line to be her friend. Just a morning rambling. It’s so different without watching! Like living in Tennessee without a Grand Old Opry! Like living on a Beale Street without rhythm and blues. Like a cereal box that reads, “free prize inside!” Only to find it’s empty there, too. There’s a definite feeling of sunshine missing when you’re removed from view. “Okay, enough of this! Go do something productive!” I am! I’m writing songs about you!! And maybe when I’m 80, I’ll be a YouTube sensation! This old guy singing about a love beyond question. There are worse things I could do! And you write to me when you’re sixty! And by then, Kateland Holdings has exploded into the stratosphere!! It’s going up as we speak! You know I’m good at holding. And maybe by then, big explosions in the sky aren’t as important. You just love a guy who loves you, who puts you on a pedestal because it’s natural to do so. And it simply feels warm. I got all the time in the world! It’s all I’ve got! And I’ll write of all the sparkling joy seeing you brings. Someone who adores you and doesn’t expect anything. It’s a nice dream. It’s not empty. I swear the dream alone gives me half of the happiness that knowing you would bring. So that’s something. It’s twenty times as much magic as I was feeling before you. And you inspire me to keep improving. You’re staggering in every conceivable way! Your beauty is what gets me up in the morning. And I rise out of bed with this feeling impossible to express!! There’s this magic in the world, and there’s a song in my heart. And I know what I’m good at, and what I’m not! And the best part is, I’m good at only the parts that I want to be good at. The rest are of no service to me. Just the ones where I can express how I love you! And how the world does, too! That alone makes me feel complete. That I’m fulfilling my purpose. You’re the most beautiful girl in the world. You always will be. You make people so happy. You’re so richly good at what you do. Sorry, I’m still waking! Up till two! I’m so excited to slowly start posting stuff! Video, too! “Who is *that??*” “Oh, that’s some ol’ guy who adores me.” But maybe with *one* of them, I’ll strike a certain chord. Something that says to you, “this guy isn’t so bad. He’s someone who’ll give me more than he ever takes.” He’s someone solid, no matter what time brings, or how hopeless things may be. He just adores me. And maybe someday far far away, that will be the only thing you feel you need. Someone you know who loves you, and you never ever have to question a thing. Hair a little grayer, but he still has hair (yay!!!). You know how guys are about that thing!! And maybe you say, “Yeah, he’s a little intense, but he’s harmless. He’s got fire, but it warms me. He takes my troubles away.” (“wow, you got me saying a lot of stuff!” she says!) Well, the dreaming’s half the fun! And you are *so* very inspiring. You got this lazy old guy who’s slipped through the cracks in life, and never working too hard and somehow keeps on floating, to build an empire of dreams. It’s real, it keeps miraculously building. The numbers don’t lie, and neither does a heart. You’ve gifted me with a feeling that life’s just getting started. How about that! And inspiring me with a feeling to do things I’ve put off for so long! With not even a care for the outcome. I crave no fame. (I’d say money, too, but, ahem – well, that isn’t so bad!!) Just the hope that someday you see, and maybe on a certain day, something catches you a certain way. And something good takes a turn, even if only a spiritual friendship. All eyes are on you. They always are. In a good way. Somedays, though, it hurts a little too much, so I have to turn away. Just to take a breath and feel strong again, and then go right in to it! Nobody has what you have. Nobody ever will. You’re the light in everything good. You’re the most spectacular girl in the world. It’s so true. I’ve looked. …  

a just-waking-up-late ramble! will post it just for fun. I’ve got a new guitar coming! “AH!!! Oh, no!!!” YUP!!! Now there are going to be all these songs about you!! Maybe one won’t be that bad! It’s not quite your style, I don’t think. But maybe it will have a crossover effect! And you’ll go, “AAAAAAH!!!!!!” like I’m Elvis!! Or Beyonce in pants. Who knows!! … okay, really need that coffee!! If I’m quiet it means I’m busy!! Off in some other activity, but, … big surprise, … it always has something to do with you! Happy almost spring!! It’s gonna hit over 60 here tomorrow!! And I’ll think of you when I take Jakey walking! And look up and feel that warm sun, and go, “yeah … that’s what she does.” You’re amazing. ☀️🥰💜👏